I am really thinking of letting go. But I am also thinking of calling M and just asking her point blank whether she thinks I should. I just feel like it's too much baggage to keep carrying around.
I'm in my mid-30's and this is my first blog. Having a daughter that I get to keep and raise over 14 years after relinquishing my son has healed me in many ways but led to more questions. Life is a journey and rather than stumbling down the path in the dark, I am now trying to get some illumination (Phantom of the Opera music suddenly fills my head!) and walk slower and more purposefully, without denial. We'll see how well I do ...