So I sent a final birthday card. I didn't make it perfectly clear that it was final, but I wished him a good life. I figure I'll send Amom a letter before Christmas so my intention is clear.

In the background I have Sleepless in Seattle on. It is 20 years old next year. How did that happen? Am I really that old? It was made in 1993. My son was 2. How different would my life be had I raised him. I don't spend so much time in what ifs these days. I didn't raise him. Must move on.